"What's Going on?"

Do you pray?

Do you expect to hear from the Lord?

I do! I do! I do!

But then again, sometimes I can't hear what he is trying to tell me. I get frustrated. I get discouraged. I get depressed. I get anxious.

It is a terrible feeling to not be able to discern the voice of the Lord during my prayer times. I think sometimes that I am so hung up on the big picture that He gave me a few years ago that my mind gets focused on how to achieve that big picture. And then when things are going desperately south (and I mean in a big way!) my brain is so far into overdrive that I can't stop and listen to the side trips that the Lord wants me to go on?

Make sense? If it does, please explain to me! :)

I know that the Lord called me to be a teacher! He gave me the means to go back to school a few years ago and get my teaching certification. However, the road since then has been filled with potholes, refining fires and many, many valleys! I haven't been able to get a full-time job. The first year I couldn't even get an interview. I've been going on interviews this summer (tons in fact) yet, I don't get the job. I've been subbing, but that doesn't give benefits or steady pay. I've had to work an additional part-time job to make ends meet. And as I type I have just about $75 to my name...bills aren't paid, credit cards are maxed, I'm not working and I'm feeling like "What the HECK!"

Someone asked me the other day over dinner have you just asked God, "What's going on?" It doesn't have to be a completed prayer, but a simple request. He told me, God will answer you. But I have to be able to hear Him. Sometimes I feel as if I've lost my hearing! But that's where I am right now, "God, what's going on in my life?"

I know beyond a shadow of a doubt that the Lord has something SPECTACULAR for my life. I'm being refined in the fire and molded by the master sculptor for a reason! The verse I've leaned on for years and years is "He will never leave me nor forsake me!" God isn't done with me yet...nor is He done with YOU! Thankfully I stand before a God who is mighty and I stand with friends and family who are praying for me daily!

A friend messaged me these verses the other day and I will leave you with them:

Psalm 25:4-5 "Show me the right path, O Lord; point out the road for me to follow. Lead me by your truth and teach me, for you are the God who saves me. All day long I put my hope in you."

Psalm 27:14 "Wait patiently for the Lord. Be brave and courageous. Yes, wait patiently for the Lord."